I am Christina Marie Hollis

The thoughts of my often hazy mind rise in this blog.

I'm forever more, eternally writing; whether its thoughts from my mind, or someone elses mind.

I'll keep this blog on a personal note, and only for the simple fact that I'm living for an audience of one.

will you go out with me?

Uhhh, who are you?

what types of foods do you eat regularly? what size are you?

I seriously eat the most fattening foods. I eat a lot of junk food. I’m a size 0 or 1 in jeans. I weigh 102lbs currently. Fast metabolism.

wanna make out with me?

and you are?

ever looked up Skylar Hollis on myspace, do explain?

this person: http://www.myspace.com/skylar_babyy
She’s a fake. That’s not me, just someone who stole my pictures.

well this fake Skylar girl has been using your photos for quite some time, atleast 4-6months that i know of.

I know, I’ve had her deleted a few times in the past and she keeps making more fake profiles. I really don’t have the time to get all of the fakes deleted. She can keep on using my pictures, its really pathetic and she has no life. Not my problem. Oh well.

so can you prove that your you, and this skylar girl is the fake one?

http://i375.photobucket.com/albums/oo192/misschristinamarie/proof/2009-03-1001-05-41158.jpg

hey girl, it’s julia. Don’t listen to the idiots who comment you about you being an attention whore and all that. You’re obv doing something right if there taking time to comment your box. Negative attention is still attention and haters will always be your best promotion, so bring them on woman! ;) P.S. When I get my car I’m taking photos of you, kaithanks!

Awe, you’re seriously SUCH a sweetheart, and definitely completely right with what you just said. Thanks girly and I can’t wait :)

your sexy

Thank you.

are you single?

Yes, I am single. However, I’m kind of “seeing” someone right now, so that makes me off limits.

do you have skype or aim?

I do not have skype. I do have aim.

so are you gunnna make out with me or no girl, caseys the name

no. I don’t make out with people I don’t know. I don’t make out with just anyone either.

Look, no one REALLY knows who you are, it’s a little scary. You seem so sweet and innocent online and even in person, but once you get into any kind of serious relationship, you snap into this girl who has no self control. You keep saying that you’ve reevaluated yourself and the way you think and act but the people who actually know you well probably know its a lie. It’s like you have no dignity or pride. Sucks.

To be completely honest, I have no idea what you’re talking about. Please elaborate..

How big is Andrews cocky

you should go find out for yourself, I’m sure he’d be more than willing to show you, considering he’ll take whatever he can get ;)

Your turn, go ask/tell me anything: http://formspring.me/christinahollis

I think everyone is placed in our lives for a specific reason. Maybe that reason is to open our eyes to a new light, maybe it’s to change us, maybe its to bring happiness or even pain to our hearts, maybe it’s just to pass the time. Whatever the reason is, it’s never permanent. Everyone always ends leaving sooner or later. I’m not sure why and I’m not sure if it’s intended to be that way, buts that’s just how it is. And I can honestly say, it’s one of the shittiest parts of life. Why can’t people just stay?

she said she had her own.

so i was going to ask you a question about my bf and i breaking up but then i read your answer to the question about being single, i definately did that i mean i didn’t really lie to him but i did depend on him way too much and i made him idk i guess i put a lot of pressure on him and then i would complain tons, and he is the best thing that has ever happened to me i’ve had loads of advice from people and he wants to possibly get together and “talk” tomorrow any advice?

Well, it’s definitely not a good sign that you were very dependent on him. I think we should all be as independent as possible because it can be really hard to find that one, true thing that will end up working out eternally. It’s definitely really cliche to say that nothing lasts forever, but in this day and age its hard to find the one thing that does. That’s why it’s so important to be as independent as possible. It’s definitely a burden on people when they feel like a lot of pressure is being placed on them. No one likes a lot of pressure, it causes a lot of unwanted stress, and no one likes stress. I’m not sure what you were complaining to him about, but if you find yourself complaining often, or “too much” as you said, maybe you’re finding more cons then pros. That’s a sign that it’s just not working. If you really feel like he’s the best thing that ever happened to you, it’s probably a good idea to sit and talk with him, one on one. Tell him how you truly feel, don’t hold back. I really feel like everyone deserves a second chance and if he sees you’re serious, maybe he’ll give you the benefit of the doubt. However, don’t change yourself for him. Be yourself. If he doesn’t like your ways or some of the things you do, don’t change that… that’s who you are. Definitely give him the time of day to sit and talk with him and listen to what he has to say and hopefully he’ll do the same for you. But if he tells you that it just didn’t work out and he doesn’t want to get together again, there’s nothing you can really do except move on. Don’t try to force anything and don’t question “why” that’ll just drive you crazy. good luck :)

whats happnin?

Nadalada, just signing my moms christmas cards for her.

What TV show makes you laugh the loudest?

I’d definitely have to say Family Guy and South Park.

What music are you listening to today?

As of recently I’ve been listening to a lot of As Tall As Lions and Owl City.

If you had access to a time machine, where and when would be the first place you travel to?

In all honesty, the first place I would travel to would be this last June of ‘09. I met a very special person at that time in my life who made some changes for the better in my life; made me a better person and opened my eyes to a whole new world and helped me to accept reality. But I lost that person due to my selfish ways and wasn’t able to realize any of that until after they were gone. I can definitely say they were the best thing that ever happened to me and I’m so thankful that they taught me some really valuable lessons, made me a stronger person, and helped me to change my life and myself for the better.

You’re so gorgeous. Where do you usually shop for your clothes?

I get most all of my clothes at Forever21

how many fingers am i holding up?

3?

how many people follow you on tumblr?

207

Do you watch what you eat to stay skinny? Or do you just have a high metabolism?

I just have a really fast metabolism. I eat whatever I want, whenever I want. It’s really nice, but I’m sure it’ll all catch up with me sooner or later. When I hurt 35 I’ll probably really have to watch it. I’m just enjoying it as much as I can now.

wow i asked the question about the bf btw and your answer just it was great:) and just amazing over the past few days i’ve had a lot of time to reflect on why i was too dependent and yes that was my fault i admit it but i’m willing to change that because i am completly and utterly in the strangest happiest and sometimes it can cause a little pain kind of love

I’m glad I could help. Just don’t change yourself for a guy; change can be a good thing, but only if you’re doing it for the better and for yourself. Good luck with everything.

Your turn!: http://formspring.me/christinahollis

I once read that if a guy likes you and tells you he likes you, but isn’t willing to take your relationship to the next level (i.e. date you) he’s interested in another girl and can’t decide what to do.

I really feel like this is true, especially since I’ve been in this situation before, only where I couldn’t decide between two boys.

Now I’m in the situation the other way around. I’ve been seeing someone for about a month now I guess you could say. I started seeing him right when he got out of a relationship, and I definitely didn’t expect him to take things to the next level right away. But I wouldn’t have gotten involved with him if I felt like things would just end up in a big ball of nothing. We’re getting closer and closer and things are starting to heat up a little as well. We’re both letting our guards down more and more but it just seems like something is holding him back and I’m not really sure what that something is, and it’s really starting to get to me and definitely causing a lot of speculation.

Sometimes, I just don’t know what to do.

Go ask/tell me anything!

“favorite snack? favorite movie? favorite animal? favorite season and weather? where do you shop?”

Favorite snack: I really love junk food, preferably sweets. Favorite animal: I’m obsessed with cats. Favorite season and weather: definitely summer. Where do I shop?: Mainly Forever21.

“Regarding your “I need your honest opinion” post.. brown hair + blue eyes is the best combination. Try it. Give it a chance. What’s the worst that could happen? If you don’t like it, you can just dye it back. In all honesty though, there isn’t a chance that you won’t look amazing. On a separate note, I think you have a lot of potential as a writer! Your posts are real and honest, and I can really appreciate that. The only things I would really recommend are googling words that you’re not sure how to spell and proofreading.”

Well thank you very much. My issue on dying my hair brown is that I’ve never had any other color hair except for blonde and I fear that if I don’t like it, I wouldn’t be able to get it back to the color I have now. It would definitely be really hard to do. I don’t have the money to go to a professional so this would all be in the comfort of my own hands. It’s a lot to think about, I’ve been back and forth on the idea for a long time now. I think I’ll definitely some day give it a go, I just don’t know when or how soon that might be. Thank you so much for the constructive criticism, I really appreciate it. I really, really love to write and it’s always been a natural thing for me to get my feelings out on paper or by typing in a journal. I would definitely love to grow more in the field of writing, so any more constructive criticism or advice you have is definitely appreciative and very helpful :)

“1. do you tan?
2. what is you natural hair color and how did you get it so light?
3. do you go to the gym?
4. where do you shop?
5. what kind of makeup do you use?
i’m sorry if i come off weird in any way, i just feel your beautiful and your such an inspiration.”

1. I do tan, in the summer… it takes a little longer for me to build my tan so well considering I have fair skin. I sometimes use a little bit of self tanner when I haven’t been able to make it to the beach in a while.
2. My natural hair color is blonde. It’s about a shade or two darker than the color I have now. I dye my hair using Revlon ColorSilk in the color of Very light natural blonde (or something like that).
3. I don’t go to the gym. As a matter of fact I’m probably the laziest person I’ve ever come to know. I don’t do anything to get a physical work out. I’m the most physically inactive person I know of. I have no idea how I manage to keep my figure; I was just blessed with amazing genes and have a really fast metabolism.
4. I shop mainly at Forever21. I have a few things for Urban Outfitters, but my main store is Forever21. They carry a brand called Heritage that I really love as well.
5. I really love using BareMinerals. It’s definitely my preference of makeup. I’m currently not using that though, because it’s too expensive. Right now I’m using Dream Matte Mouse by Maybelline. I use loose face powder, made by Covergirl, over that. I also use BareMinerals blush in a peachy pink color. I use Covergirl CG professionals Mascara.

“you seriously are an attention whore; you post way too many pictures and it’s all just for attention. you’re pretty, but when you flaunt it like that and cop out by adding people you don’t even know, you just seem desperate, shallow, and insecure. grow up, life’s not about being ‘popular’ anymore.”

I usually don’t feel the need to defend myself with comments like these, but I’m sure you’re looking for my response, so here goes nothing… I’m sorry you feel like I’m an attention whore and post too many pictures, but did it ever occur to you that I’m not living my life for your approval? You tell me I’m pretty but flaunt it like that… hasn’t the saying always been “if you’ve got it, flaunt it?” However I don’t feel that I flaunt it by any means. You’re referring to flaunting it by the large amounts of pictures that I take of myself, correct? I’m sorry, but my life long goal has always been to be a model, so sorry if being behind a camera is what I love doing, but I’m not going to stop doing what I love because of your prejudgement about me. Yes, I accept friend requests from people I don’t know, but it’s simply because I love meeting new people. I’m sure you’ve got at least a handful of people on your friendlists on whatever social networking site that you’re on, that you don’t know. Not really sure how I come off as desperate and shallow, but whatever you’d like to think. I’m just glad I don’t judge a person before I get to know them, as you are me. I won’t disagree with being insecure. Yeah I’ve got my insecurities, but we all have those. I definitely don’t feel like life is about being “popular” as to I was never in the in crowds and never really intended to be. I’m not in high school, I have no to be even be popular in front of. You really should get to know a person before you judge them, because it’s definitely very hypocritical of you to call me shallow, when clearly you just made all of the shallow gestures :)

“People know me for what I’ve done, not for what I plan to do.
I guess I can only blame myself but the reason I’m leaving is to escape that, to be better than I have been. I am different now, but no one believes it.
“I feel more comfortable talking to strangers than people I know. I believe this is because chances are, I’ll never see them ever again. And I feel like I can say anything I want. They don’t know my past or what I’ve done. They can only judge me on who they are seeing right that second. I’m the person I am now, not then. People I know don’t see the difference.”ps.) After posting what I just posted here, seeing one of your tumblr post makes me feel as though I’m doing the right thing. People really can change. I know that most of us resist it at first, but once we really wanna do something to better ourselves, we know change is the only way.
“People don’t change, they just find new ways to hide their true colors.”
I’m not hiding my colors, I’ve shed my old skin.”

There’s a difference between being young and stupid and making careless decisions and changing. Don’t let your past affect who you become in the future. You’re still growing into the person you’re going to become. I think it’s okay to make mistakes when you’re young, how else will you ever learn? We all do careless things when we’re young, we’re still learning whats right and wrong. It’s definitely too late to take back what you’ve done in the past, but it’s not too late to make sure you don’t repeat those same mistakes. There comes a time in everyone’s life when they just… grow up. Growing up is realizing you can’t do the childish, immature things you did as a kid. I think you’ve hit that stage :) Your true friends, and the only people who will ever matter, will look past what you’ve done and see you for who you’re becoming. Stay strong girl.

“do u have a boyfriend?”

No, but I’m kind of “seeing” someone… so that makes me off limits to who ever is interested, not that you are, but just in general.

“why is a beautiful girl like you single? you are angel gorgeous you should think about a modeling career anyway ill be expecting a answer”

Well, honestly, I’m currently single for the stupid decisions I made in my last relationship. I did a lot of stupid things. I lied to my boyfriend at the time about some pretty dumb stuff. I was deceitful and messed up big time with a really amazing person. All I can say now is that you live and learn. It took me losing the  best thing that ever happened to me to realize that what I was doing, what I did to him, was not okay and will never be okay under any circumstance. I’ve definitely considered a career in modeling. I’m a Barbizon modeling and acting school graduate and I plan on taking that degree somewhere, sometime soon :)

“do you ever wish guys would just stop hitting on you and just compliment other things im sure are great about you?”

Most definitely. It really bothers me sometimes how a lot of guys focus solely on my looks. It’s definitely nice to hear that they feel I’m beautiful or whatever, but I’d definitely really like to be noticed for my intelligence, maturity, personality, and everything else I’m made of.

Now it’s your turn! NEW FORMSPRING(.me) @  http://formspring.me/christinahollis

yyllohhollyy:

I wish the thoughts and opinions of others didn’t make such a huge impact on my life. I may say “idgaf”, but in reality, I do. There is not a single person out there, however, that lives that saying to the fullest extent. In reality, we all care at least a little. I think if those negative thoughts and opinions of others that bother us so much didn’t exist, our world would be much more creative. It would be much more open minded. It would just be easier to live your life in general. We could be the people God intended for us to be.